Boys and girls out hunting. Relationship is such a comfort thing to cling on. Like he said : we are all doomed. Any excuses can put you in one. We project connections, making every little thing into a sparks and wanting more of it. We believe producing sparks are not self efficient. Have it, when we can. Want it when we can not. Even facing a most beautiful human being that inspires you to be a brand new better self, just why do you have to ‘be with’ that human being? Why can you just ‘be’ the being? I see relationship of any sort brings no benefit for me. I’m sure of that at least for now still.
What had brought me down is that something happened that reminded me that my twin is not on the same state of mind. Was only my one way projection. I love people and my twin. Just shocked again how easy it is to fall in to dependance. I was depending on her to keep on track with what I believe the perfect state of mind so I don’t fall back on conventional. Building and unknotting in the way what media taught us. Instead of believing myself is the only person that has all the answers. Well that was just another lesson learnt about thinking in isolation is the only way out.
Can’t believe I own thesis 3500 words and i’m here typing my learnt lesson today.
Eyes becoming raisins. Must juice them before they fall out of the holes.
lately my virtual identities are getting a little mixed up.
Running 4 blogs, 2 online shops and being an ex social media slut is giving me a real back fire.
I really really want to know who has been reading my blog, YOU, yes talk to me please.
Apart from the ones i do talk to already, please message me with your
Name//gender//age//where are you from and live//why you following me// what’s your story//what do you do for money// what happened in your latest crush// who or where do you get sex advice// Your schedule for a usual day… and more of whatever you wanna tell.